WTF

it's christmas eve and i'm still in the office... ALONE. waiting for the stupid designers to give me the damn artwork. omfg. they are really super slow and dumb can! i have to tell them about 1 amendment for like 5 times before they get it right! numbskulls.

UGH. i feel so cranky and whiny now. %$@#!@#!#$%&^*

i wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................!

this christmas sucks.

the most important time is the night of christmas eve and morning of christmas day.

christmas night means nothing to me at all.

i miss the good old christmases.

09/12/08 - good day

i'm so fucking happy!

i feel a big load off my shoulders and now, I am free to do as I like!












thank you.

screams.

llama de mi corazon..

batam pix part 1

Camwhoring at the ferry terminal.. so happyyyyyy!!!!!



On the way, on the way!!





Random shots cos i was so restless....



Tadah! we're here!!!





Great view man..



Our room number.



Our room!!! I love that mirror... so big!





At the lobby - back door. we wanted to put one dog (???) on top of the other to take RA pic, but we're too much of a coward. haha.





see??? can really smoke like fucking anywhere!!! this is the kelong restaurant.



food glorious food!!



still st the restaurant.



this is the stage at the club! i made the bf go up and sing me a birthday song. la la la!



in memory of that touching (and a bit awkward) situation.



so happyyyyyyyyy! =D

more pics to come when my laptop revives from the dead.

toodles!

october madness!

i had a taste of being a tai tai today - going out early for breakfast, shopping, pedicure, shopping, tea, shopping, dinner, shopping..... SHIOK AH!

had a break off work cos I had an MC today, kinda wasted if I dont use it sooooo...

anyways, been really busy and tired lately, havent had much time or energy to blog.

blogging seems like a thing of the past now... my distant past where I slack and had nothing to do.

SIGH.

anyways, I survived the first few months of work. kinda like it now, feel bit weird not working. heh. psycho.

also, survived badminton session with my CEO and directors. phew. they booked the court for next week alr, but damn if I go. haha. I rather eat a whole durian, with the shell on!

turned 20 fucking 3 early this month. big THANK YOU to those who remembered / got me presents! my manager got me a freaking CK bag la! so touched. got an LV wallet and a batam trip too!! woo hoo.

and can I just say this.....










I FUCKING LOVE BATAM.. LIKE FUCKING ALOT!




pics to come if my laptop doesnt die on me. it's getting bit cranky.

ok, back to batam. it. is. fucking. awesome! i thought it'd be sleazy and stuff but whoa! the resort was great! check it out if you want a short getaway. damn cheap also. eat the seafood and SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE! me and the bf were smoking like chimneys everywhere! you can smoke in the room, the lift, the lobby..everywhere! our cigs were like freaking accesories la! always on us. hahah.

and dont forget to JETSKI!!! the feling is fucking awesome. undescribable man. at first i was kinda scared, goin like really slow. then after the bf taught me how to do a "j-turn" (cos he was in the navy........big deal), i couldnt stop! like omfg. sped and turn until we actually flew out of the freaking jetski la! wah lan eh. damn shiok.

I WANNA GO BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

you can even get singapore network there lor. damn useful for saving on raoming charges, and in my case, to not let my mom know i'm overseas. hahah. oops.

another major event that happened - my graduation!!!

it was kinda boring, but it was great to see all the familiar slackers again. sigh. i miss US. and i cant beleive that we did it! graduated! hahahahahahahaha. watch out world! a bunch of monsters unleashed!

hmmm. have this networking dinner coming up. free food and drinks! yay! thank god i'm on good terms with the biz dev manager. i'm the only one he asked from my dept cos he cant bring too many ppl. but now, i have to think of what to wear!!! aparantly it's a formal dinner with the bigwigs. and i have to bring loads of namecards! network network network! the guy collected like 3000 namecards the previous time. damn!

okays, so much for now. will try uploading pics now. pls laptop, i love you very much!!! dont die on me and i wont replace you with the chic and chio red sony laptop!

fucking funny shit!

things.

there are so many aspects of my life that are evolving. so much to think about. think think think. that seems to be the main thing i do now, which is saying alot cos i used to be a bimbo!

oh dear, where do i start?

work: even though i dont love it, i dont hate it. it's just really alot of things to do. tedious, tiring, both physically and mentally. always have to be on my toes. before i barely finish my project, more come in. but i like it that i'm busy, i like time passing really fast. i'm getting used to the stress. but still not sure what i wanna do. the gal that i get along most well with is leaving, which is kinda sucky. everyone in my office is married with kids, so there's alot of talk about married life and babies. well, considering where i'm working, it's not that surprising. gaining lots of perspective.

home: the old fogeys are at it everyday. fighting bout stupid things. now that the father has decided to retire (again), i predict home is no longer a place for me to relax. then again, i'm guessing it'll be less than 6 months before he works again. the two just cant face each other for too long a time. looking at them makes me think really really hard about marriage. what so good about it. but it also makes me more sure of things. what not to do. who not to want.

the boy: things are good. nice and calm. no fireworks means no risk of catching fire i guess. understanding, patient. love it. he makes me peaceful, makes me a nicer person to be around. i like myself alot more now than before. and i realise that i like him alot more now than before too. guess i'm finally looking at him the way i should.

oh oh oh! did i mention that i finally got my belly pierced??? la la la. it hurt like fuck but it's done and it's so pretty!!! not that i'd show anyone cos my belly's damn hairy (wonder why mel thinks that's funny).

having the past catch up with you is scary but liberating business. the shock and hurt doesnt compare to the realization and contentment it brings. i guess it was good seeing you again, even if we walk on by like strangers and pretend we dont exist..

..and thank you, my partner-in-crime.

phewweeeeeeeeeeeee.

it's done it's done it's done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DONE!!

My very first project done and in time!!!

Thank you God. I believe in you now.

finalised details for printing and i'll get the catalogues by the end of the mth! yay!

i can finally go home and not think abt the catalogue now.

woo hoo!





hey you, stay off my back. i'm no sweet young thing. asshole.

me me me.

i like slacking when everyone's hard at work. ahhhh. -stretches-

not that i'm lazy!

although it's my off day today, i still went back to the office and hospital to do things okay.. ^%#$W@%$!

die la. think i'm behind schedule, i hate deadlines!

everyone, pls reply my email!!!!!! ugh.

work's okay i guess. a bit tedious, a bit stressful, a bit underpaid but other than that, it's a-okay.

even scored an invitation to some art exhibition at SMU gallery. haha. feel so atas.

thank you mediacorp! (no, i dont work there. sigh.)

oh, did i mention people say i look like teresa teng??? like omfg. so fucking old school can! i like to think that i'm a very modern person. hmph.

i'm soooo looking forward to pay day.

i wanna get:

- 10 pairs of shoes
- 3 bags
- lots and lots of clothes, maybe a ton!
- brazillian wax! (gonna scream with my colleagues, bonding session. haha.)
- manicure and pedicure
- belly piercing

sigh. cant blog about sensitive topics already. moron at my side. hahahahahahah.

anyways, have to make out before leaving for my play!!!!

gonna catch "To Kill A Mockingbird" . yes yes yes! will write a short review about it some time in my life.

CIAO!

w.o.r.k - the four letter word

it's my third working day so far and my feet are absolutely dying.

needa get me some funky flats soon..

I MISS BEING A STUDENT!

sigh. i feel so old nowadays, mel is right. we should go party.

the gals in my office are kinda nice, but they have split personalities or something. lunchtime, they are totally crazy! (very my type) but back in the office, everyone's like so quiet and wierd. must be the stress..

and boy am i feeling the heat. longest staff in the office is leaving on thurs and guess who's gonna take over everything? tada! me.

shit.

have to meet so many people before she leaves, learning their names is enough to kill me. trying to learn as much as i can before she leaves so i can do everything smoothly and not interrupt the flow.

STRESS.

met the bigboss today, as in the founder, the chief, the omega, the mighty one (u know what i'm trying to say la huh) of my company. *shivers* talking to him was so scary, but awe-inspiring. i felt so green. didnt expect to be spoken to, so i didnt prepare anything before the meeting.

OMG. big mistake.

i had no idea what to say when he asked me about the company's branding and i juz came up with some crap on the spot. oh well. he seems really nice which is good cos i have to work closely with him and the others, prepare his slides, organise seminars etc.

i'm really freaked out.

i actually have loadsa pics, but i'm juz too goddamn tired/lazy to upload to my laptop. yawns.

alrightey, updates soon.

medical check up to come.

it's to see if i'm "fit for employment".

oh god, what if i have cancer????

*yawns*










money money money

to my special someone

23rd of july.

how can i forget.

what a day for my special someone..

the one who is #2 on my speed dial,

my #2

the one who bitches with me when i talk about the people or things i despise,

dont mess w her man.

the one who is my source of reason when the world or rather i, myself have gone crazy,

and i think this was before the drinks. shit.

the one who looks out for me and would order me toy boys when i'm forty,

lookin out as usual.

the one who introduced me to sin,

i lurrrve fried mars bar!!!


the one who braved church with me (we get blisters and die if we step onto holy ground, in theory anyway),

we just love the presents actually.

the one who makes me pick out "dao gei" if (god forbid!) her food has them,

argh, dao gei!

the one who went to get stupid, bulky and totally useless helium balloons with me for my 21st,

totally no use whatsoever.

the one who can read my mind,

she is psychic!

the one who forgives me when i unknowingly reveals her secret to HX - her nemesis,

neh, this one.

the one who doesnt care if im evil (cos she's worse),

dont we both look just angelic???

the one who missed me (probably the most! haha.) when i left for US for a mth,

taken few days after i got back.

the one who joined netball with me because i forced her to,

taken on my 21st! (no netball pic)

the one who orders 20 shots of irish cream even though she cant drink,

irish cream and apple vodka shots.

the one who sometimes share the same taste in clothings as me,

see, i'm not kidding!

the one who knows all my secrets (pls dont blackmail me!),

shhhh!

the one who is..

..so different..

.. yet similar to me.

happy birthday smelly melly.

i love you, allergic to alcohol and all!

what am i doing?

where do i go next?

these few weeks have been one helleva roller coaster emotionally. i'm like friggin PMS-ing everyday of the month la. am i goin crazy??? shits.

was reading one of my friend's blog, let's just call her Ms B. met up w her and smelly melly and another guy from high sch the other day. by right, we should have been close, well closer anyways, considering the fact that i've known her for like what 10 years, but things happen, teens will always be teens. i guess it's one regret i'll always have.

anways, she looks much thinner than before, and trust me she was thin already. but still her energy level was sky high, smiled alot, talked crap with us, as if everything was normal. i feel so ashamed just thinking about it, how hard her life must have been, how strong she has to be. and i was never there for her, never overcame my fear of how she might react to me, never summoned enough courage to admit that i still care for her.

she is the epitome of inner strength. after all that she's been through: 2 jobs, staying on her own, family to look after, one bad relationship after another, she's still trodding on with life. and she doesnt grumble or say anything about it.

what are we? talking about jadedness and love lost. i'm such a spoilt child. a selfish, proud, cowardly spoilt child. i really hope that things will get better for her, for the people around her, and that love will finally find its way to her soon.

though i never said it, i admire and respect you alot, even if we're not close friends, i still hope to be there for you one day..

existence.

he is..

waking up early on christmas morning, making your way through the darkness alone, feet on the cold floor, heart thumping with anticipation..

peeking at the many presents under the big glowing christmas tree, trying to find the parcels with your name on it, a mug of hot chocolate beside you..

wide eyes on the plate of half-eaten cookies, carrots and mince pies, the empty glass which was once filled, but now contains only traces of warm milk..

heart swelling, thinking santa had come.

the feeling?

amazing and magical..

..but wait, santa doesn't exist.

when there's nothing left to burn,
you have to set yourself on fire.

Breakable by Ingrid Michaelson

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?

Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.

So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,

And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

And we are so fragile,And our cracking bones make noise,

And we are just,

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

You fasten my seatbelt because it is the law.

In your two ton death trap I finally saw.

A piece of love in your face that bathed me in regret.

Then you drove me to places I'll never forget.

And we are so fragile,

And our cracking bones make noise,

And we are just,

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

And we are so fragile,

And our cracking bones make noise,

And we are just,

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls-

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls-

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

check this out!

was checking out tattoo sites and blogs (there may be a tattoo convention next january in Singapore!!!!!) when i stumbled upon these:

damn fucking funny right???

i couldn't stop laughing my head off.

you can even sign a petition to stop war by masturbating!

how meaningful.

go to masturbateforpeace.com to get some funky peace quotes like:

"War can wait, masturbate!"

"War is silly, whack your willy!"

"Don't fight for gasoline, use your Vaseline!"

har dee har.

hilarious shit.

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY Y'ALL!

gals.

hottie, angelic, bimbotic and bitchy.

i wish u all only the best in life..

may we be so happy and successful until we feel bad about it!

*hugs*

















a broken heart doesn't stop beating..
that's why it hurts.

motivate.

lazy, bored and restless.. yawns.

my darlings are all so busy now! work, sch, internships blah blah blah. yet, i am relatively happy because for once, there's not much shit happening. somehow i get the feeling i'm an old woman trapped in a young person's body.

was talking to e bf the other day about partying. i see pictures of people drinking and dancing the night away, and i dont crave for that anymore. maybe not so much for dancing, drinking.. oh well, i'm getting there. i remember the last time we went to par-teh, it was kinda boring. we'd much rather sit down and talk.

dammit. i cant be getting old! i'm just reaching my prime!

yet, i cant get the thought of life being more than just merry-making out of my head. it seems so shallow and transcient.

anyways, we've been thinking of saving up for a really nice trip. it'll be kinda like a graduation trip, but it's not gonna happen until he actually graduates, which would be 2 years later. sighs. hopefully we'll save enough for all the things we wanna do and places we wanna see.

europe, here we come baby.

so the plan is 2 weeks in europe, which i think is too damn bloody short. have an aunt staying in england, so we'll probably pop by for a while as well (free lodging!!! yay!), then make our way to the other places. details will have to be straightened out later, anyway it's like still super duper long way to go.

when i say there are many places we wanna visit, i am not kidding. but here's our shortlisted places after much discussion and compromise (grumbles):

1. England

surrey: where e aunt lives

- london

pretty london.

i love harrods.

- stratford

might not seem like much, but it's shakepeare's birthplace - a definite must go.

- old trafford

manchester united rocks my socks!

- stanley park

apparently liverpool rocks his. traitor.

2. France

- paris

eiffel tower. beautiful. i have to go up this time!

moulin rouge! c'mon, dont u wanna go??

3. Netherlands

- amsterdam

weed! nah i'm just kidding.

4. Italy

- Milan

fashion capital of the world?? i'm there.

gucci cafe.. hell yeah.

hmm. we still have to figure out the route, plan the itinerary, and get the budget. following which, we have to SAVE SAVE SAVE like crazy for the best trip of our lives. ahahahahahah. i can hardly breathe. i need to get a job asap, you need to make sure u graduate on time.

easy peasy.