um......

rain, red cars, dad, work, hk cafe, dbl o, casablanca, evo, east coast, bedok, catering, nasi lemak, prata, my carpark, construction, cigarettes..

..all remind me of u.

i wish i hadnt seen that glaringly obvious red car, and the driver with that distinctive walk.

be strong.

20% happy, 30% aching, 50% ashamed = 100% mortified.

i only did that out of desperation, but why am i feeling so desperate?

i'm looking forward, glancing back occasionally.

that face, that smile, and those lovely hands.

they are in a totally different world now, one that i can't understand, can't be in, can't reach no matter how familiar it looks.

people talk about always, always, without understanding.

hmmm..

This is what we do when we get sick of work. btw, happy bday polly (like months back)













plus, the perks! professional shots!! here i come modelling world! (for dwarfs) muahahahaha.







bunch a bimbos. ahhh, work.

yay yay yay!

'Transformers 2' Theatrical Trailer @ Yahoo! Video

refurbished!

finally, after months of neglect, i've done sth to my blog!

i hope to upload some pix and blog more but dont think my life will allow that. haha.

busy busy busy!

but i promise not to leave it hanging too long.

yay!

30.03.09

opening a can of worms.

City Alive!

sigh...

fun, parties, suppers, drinks, desserts, movies, books, friends, music, a holiday!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FUCKING HATE STUPID PEOPLE!

AND I FUCKING HATE STUPID PEOPLE WHO INDIRECTLY OR DIRECTLY SCREW UP MY LIFE.

HATE THEMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!

BLOODY BRAINLESS USELESS AND A FUCKING WASTE OF TIME!

FUCK!!!!!

WTF

it's christmas eve and i'm still in the office... ALONE. waiting for the stupid designers to give me the damn artwork. omfg. they are really super slow and dumb can! i have to tell them about 1 amendment for like 5 times before they get it right! numbskulls.

UGH. i feel so cranky and whiny now. %$@#!@#!#$%&^*

i wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................!

this christmas sucks.

the most important time is the night of christmas eve and morning of christmas day.

christmas night means nothing to me at all.

i miss the good old christmases.

09/12/08 - good day

i'm so fucking happy!

i feel a big load off my shoulders and now, I am free to do as I like!












thank you.

screams.

llama de mi corazon..

batam pix part 1

Camwhoring at the ferry terminal.. so happyyyyyy!!!!!



On the way, on the way!!





Random shots cos i was so restless....



Tadah! we're here!!!





Great view man..



Our room number.



Our room!!! I love that mirror... so big!





At the lobby - back door. we wanted to put one dog (???) on top of the other to take RA pic, but we're too much of a coward. haha.





see??? can really smoke like fucking anywhere!!! this is the kelong restaurant.



food glorious food!!



still st the restaurant.



this is the stage at the club! i made the bf go up and sing me a birthday song. la la la!



in memory of that touching (and a bit awkward) situation.



so happyyyyyyyyy! =D

more pics to come when my laptop revives from the dead.

toodles!

october madness!

i had a taste of being a tai tai today - going out early for breakfast, shopping, pedicure, shopping, tea, shopping, dinner, shopping..... SHIOK AH!

had a break off work cos I had an MC today, kinda wasted if I dont use it sooooo...

anyways, been really busy and tired lately, havent had much time or energy to blog.

blogging seems like a thing of the past now... my distant past where I slack and had nothing to do.

SIGH.

anyways, I survived the first few months of work. kinda like it now, feel bit weird not working. heh. psycho.

also, survived badminton session with my CEO and directors. phew. they booked the court for next week alr, but damn if I go. haha. I rather eat a whole durian, with the shell on!

turned 20 fucking 3 early this month. big THANK YOU to those who remembered / got me presents! my manager got me a freaking CK bag la! so touched. got an LV wallet and a batam trip too!! woo hoo.

and can I just say this.....










I FUCKING LOVE BATAM.. LIKE FUCKING ALOT!




pics to come if my laptop doesnt die on me. it's getting bit cranky.

ok, back to batam. it. is. fucking. awesome! i thought it'd be sleazy and stuff but whoa! the resort was great! check it out if you want a short getaway. damn cheap also. eat the seafood and SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE! me and the bf were smoking like chimneys everywhere! you can smoke in the room, the lift, the lobby..everywhere! our cigs were like freaking accesories la! always on us. hahah.

and dont forget to JETSKI!!! the feling is fucking awesome. undescribable man. at first i was kinda scared, goin like really slow. then after the bf taught me how to do a "j-turn" (cos he was in the navy........big deal), i couldnt stop! like omfg. sped and turn until we actually flew out of the freaking jetski la! wah lan eh. damn shiok.

I WANNA GO BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

you can even get singapore network there lor. damn useful for saving on raoming charges, and in my case, to not let my mom know i'm overseas. hahah. oops.

another major event that happened - my graduation!!!

it was kinda boring, but it was great to see all the familiar slackers again. sigh. i miss US. and i cant beleive that we did it! graduated! hahahahahahahaha. watch out world! a bunch of monsters unleashed!

hmmm. have this networking dinner coming up. free food and drinks! yay! thank god i'm on good terms with the biz dev manager. i'm the only one he asked from my dept cos he cant bring too many ppl. but now, i have to think of what to wear!!! aparantly it's a formal dinner with the bigwigs. and i have to bring loads of namecards! network network network! the guy collected like 3000 namecards the previous time. damn!

okays, so much for now. will try uploading pics now. pls laptop, i love you very much!!! dont die on me and i wont replace you with the chic and chio red sony laptop!

fucking funny shit!

things.

there are so many aspects of my life that are evolving. so much to think about. think think think. that seems to be the main thing i do now, which is saying alot cos i used to be a bimbo!

oh dear, where do i start?

work: even though i dont love it, i dont hate it. it's just really alot of things to do. tedious, tiring, both physically and mentally. always have to be on my toes. before i barely finish my project, more come in. but i like it that i'm busy, i like time passing really fast. i'm getting used to the stress. but still not sure what i wanna do. the gal that i get along most well with is leaving, which is kinda sucky. everyone in my office is married with kids, so there's alot of talk about married life and babies. well, considering where i'm working, it's not that surprising. gaining lots of perspective.

home: the old fogeys are at it everyday. fighting bout stupid things. now that the father has decided to retire (again), i predict home is no longer a place for me to relax. then again, i'm guessing it'll be less than 6 months before he works again. the two just cant face each other for too long a time. looking at them makes me think really really hard about marriage. what so good about it. but it also makes me more sure of things. what not to do. who not to want.

the boy: things are good. nice and calm. no fireworks means no risk of catching fire i guess. understanding, patient. love it. he makes me peaceful, makes me a nicer person to be around. i like myself alot more now than before. and i realise that i like him alot more now than before too. guess i'm finally looking at him the way i should.

oh oh oh! did i mention that i finally got my belly pierced??? la la la. it hurt like fuck but it's done and it's so pretty!!! not that i'd show anyone cos my belly's damn hairy (wonder why mel thinks that's funny).

having the past catch up with you is scary but liberating business. the shock and hurt doesnt compare to the realization and contentment it brings. i guess it was good seeing you again, even if we walk on by like strangers and pretend we dont exist..

..and thank you, my partner-in-crime.

phewweeeeeeeeeeeee.

it's done it's done it's done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DONE!!

My very first project done and in time!!!

Thank you God. I believe in you now.

finalised details for printing and i'll get the catalogues by the end of the mth! yay!

i can finally go home and not think abt the catalogue now.

woo hoo!





hey you, stay off my back. i'm no sweet young thing. asshole.