klutz.

um......

2010-04-11T15:07:00.003+08:00

rain, red cars, dad, work, hk cafe, dbl o, casablanca, evo, east coast, bedok, catering, nasi lemak, prata, my carpark, construction, cigarettes..

..all remind me of u.

i wish i hadnt seen that glaringly obvious red car, and the driver with that distinctive walk.

2009-08-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

2009-06-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

be strong.

20% happy, 30% aching, 50% ashamed = 100% mortified.

2009-06-17T22:12:00.003+08:00

i only did that out of desperation, but why am i feeling so desperate?

i'm looking forward, glancing back occasionally.

that face, that smile, and those lovely hands.

they are in a totally different world now, one that i can't understand, can't be in, can't reach no matter how familiar it looks.

people talk about always, always, without understanding.

hmmm..

2009-06-13T17:23:00.004+08:00

This is what we do when we get sick of work. btw, happy bday polly (like months back)

plus, the perks! professional shots!! here i come modelling world! (for dwarfs) muahahahaha.

bunch a bimbos. ahhh, work.

yay yay yay!

2009-05-10T16:51:00.000+08:00

'Transformers 2' Theatrical Trailer @ Yahoo! Video

refurbished!

2009-03-31T16:00:00.001+08:00

finally, after months of neglect, i've done sth to my blog!

i hope to upload some pix and blog more but dont think my life will allow that. haha.

busy busy busy!

but i promise not to leave it hanging too long.

yay!

30.03.09

2009-03-30T17:39:00.000+08:00

opening a can of worms.

City Alive!

2009-02-09T21:47:00.010+08:00

sigh...

2009-02-02T23:03:00.003+08:00

fun, parties, suppers, drinks, desserts, movies, books, friends, music, a holiday!!!

2009-01-06T12:36:00.003+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FUCKING HATE STUPID PEOPLE!

AND I FUCKING HATE STUPID PEOPLE WHO INDIRECTLY OR DIRECTLY SCREW UP MY LIFE.

HATE THEMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!

BLOODY BRAINLESS USELESS AND A FUCKING WASTE OF TIME!

FUCK!!!!!

WTF

2008-12-24T14:26:00.002+08:00

it's christmas eve and i'm still in the office... ALONE. waiting for the stupid designers to give me the damn artwork. omfg. they are really super slow and dumb can! i have to tell them about 1 amendment for like 5 times before they get it right! numbskulls.

UGH. i feel so cranky and whiny now. %$@#!@#!#$%&^*

i wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................!

this christmas sucks.

the most important time is the night of christmas eve and morning of christmas day.

christmas night means nothing to me at all.

i miss the good old christmases.

2008-12-20T17:48:00.002+08:00

09/12/08 - good day

2008-12-10T13:42:00.001+08:00

i'm so fucking happy!

i feel a big load off my shoulders and now, I am free to do as I like!

thank you.

screams.

2008-11-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

llama de mi corazon..

batam pix part 1

2008-10-18T13:49:00.023+08:00

Camwhoring at the ferry terminal.. so happyyyyyy!!!!!

On the way, on the way!!

Random shots cos i was so restless....

Tadah! we're here!!!

Great view man..

Our room number.

Our room!!! I love that mirror... so big!

At the lobby - back door. we wanted to put one dog (???) on top of the other to take RA pic, but we're too much of a coward. haha.

see??? can really smoke like fucking anywhere!!! this is the kelong restaurant.

food glorious food!!

still st the restaurant.

this is the stage at the club! i made the bf go up and sing me a birthday song. la la la!

in memory of that touching (and a bit awkward) situation.

so happyyyyyyyyy! =D

more pics to come when my laptop revives from the dead.

toodles!

october madness!

2008-10-17T23:35:00.003+08:00

i had a taste of being a tai tai today - going out early for breakfast, shopping, pedicure, shopping, tea, shopping, dinner, shopping..... SHIOK AH!

had a break off work cos I had an MC today, kinda wasted if I dont use it sooooo...

anyways, been really busy and tired lately, havent had much time or energy to blog.

blogging seems like a thing of the past now... my distant past where I slack and had nothing to do.

SIGH.

anyways, I survived the first few months of work. kinda like it now, feel bit weird not working. heh. psycho.

also, survived badminton session with my CEO and directors. phew. they booked the court for next week alr, but damn if I go. haha. I rather eat a whole durian, with the shell on!

turned 20 fucking 3 early this month. big THANK YOU to those who remembered / got me presents! my manager got me a freaking CK bag la! so touched. got an LV wallet and a batam trip too!! woo hoo.

and can I just say this.....

I FUCKING LOVE BATAM.. LIKE FUCKING ALOT!

pics to come if my laptop doesnt die on me. it's getting bit cranky.

ok, back to batam. it. is. fucking. awesome! i thought it'd be sleazy and stuff but whoa! the resort was great! check it out if you want a short getaway. damn cheap also. eat the seafood and SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE! me and the bf were smoking like chimneys everywhere! you can smoke in the room, the lift, the lobby..everywhere! our cigs were like freaking accesories la! always on us. hahah.

and dont forget to JETSKI!!! the feling is fucking awesome. undescribable man. at first i was kinda scared, goin like really slow. then after the bf taught me how to do a "j-turn" (cos he was in the navy........big deal), i couldnt stop! like omfg. sped and turn until we actually flew out of the freaking jetski la! wah lan eh. damn shiok.

I WANNA GO BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

you can even get singapore network there lor. damn useful for saving on raoming charges, and in my case, to not let my mom know i'm overseas. hahah. oops.

another major event that happened - my graduation!!!

it was kinda boring, but it was great to see all the familiar slackers again. sigh. i miss US. and i cant beleive that we did it! graduated! hahahahahahahaha. watch out world! a bunch of monsters unleashed!

hmmm. have this networking dinner coming up. free food and drinks! yay! thank god i'm on good terms with the biz dev manager. i'm the only one he asked from my dept cos he cant bring too many ppl. but now, i have to think of what to wear!!! aparantly it's a formal dinner with the bigwigs. and i have to bring loads of namecards! network network network! the guy collected like 3000 namecards the previous time. damn!

okays, so much for now. will try uploading pics now. pls laptop, i love you very much!!! dont die on me and i wont replace you with the chic and chio red sony laptop!

fucking funny shit!

2008-09-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

things.

2008-09-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

there are so many aspects of my life that are evolving. so much to think about. think think think. that seems to be the main thing i do now, which is saying alot cos i used to be a bimbo!

oh dear, where do i start?

work: even though i dont love it, i dont hate it. it's just really alot of things to do. tedious, tiring, both physically and mentally. always have to be on my toes. before i barely finish my project, more come in. but i like it that i'm busy, i like time passing really fast. i'm getting used to the stress. but still not sure what i wanna do. the gal that i get along most well with is leaving, which is kinda sucky. everyone in my office is married with kids, so there's alot of talk about married life and babies. well, considering where i'm working, it's not that surprising. gaining lots of perspective.

home: the old fogeys are at it everyday. fighting bout stupid things. now that the father has decided to retire (again), i predict home is no longer a place for me to relax. then again, i'm guessing it'll be less than 6 months before he works again. the two just cant face each other for too long a time. looking at them makes me think really really hard about marriage. what so good about it. but it also makes me more sure of things. what not to do. who not to want.

the boy: things are good. nice and calm. no fireworks means no risk of catching fire i guess. understanding, patient. love it. he makes me peaceful, makes me a nicer person to be around. i like myself alot more now than before. and i realise that i like him alot more now than before too. guess i'm finally looking at him the way i should.

oh oh oh! did i mention that i finally got my belly pierced??? la la la. it hurt like fuck but it's done and it's so pretty!!! not that i'd show anyone cos my belly's damn hairy (wonder why mel thinks that's funny).

having the past catch up with you is scary but liberating business. the shock and hurt doesnt compare to the realization and contentment it brings. i guess it was good seeing you again, even if we walk on by like strangers and pretend we dont exist..

..and thank you, my partner-in-crime.

phewweeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-08-22T18:38:00.002+08:00

it's done it's done it's done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DONE!!

My very first project done and in time!!!

Thank you God. I believe in you now.

finalised details for printing and i'll get the catalogues by the end of the mth! yay!

i can finally go home and not think abt the catalogue now.

woo hoo!

hey you, stay off my back. i'm no sweet young thing. asshole.

me me me.

2008-08-21T17:20:00.004+08:00

i like slacking when everyone's hard at work. ahhhh. -stretches-

not that i'm lazy!

although it's my off day today, i still went back to the office and hospital to do things okay.. ^%#$W@%$!

die la. think i'm behind schedule, i hate deadlines!

everyone, pls reply my email!!!!!! ugh.

work's okay i guess. a bit tedious, a bit stressful, a bit underpaid but other than that, it's a-okay.

even scored an invitation to some art exhibition at SMU gallery. haha. feel so atas.

thank you mediacorp! (no, i dont work there. sigh.)

oh, did i mention people say i look like teresa teng??? like omfg. so fucking old school can! i like to think that i'm a very modern person. hmph.

i'm soooo looking forward to pay day.

i wanna get:

- 10 pairs of shoes
- 3 bags
- lots and lots of clothes, maybe a ton!
- brazillian wax! (gonna scream with my colleagues, bonding session. haha.)
- manicure and pedicure
- belly piercing

sigh. cant blog about sensitive topics already. moron at my side. hahahahahahah.

anyways, have to make out before leaving for my play!!!!

gonna catch "To Kill A Mockingbird" . yes yes yes! will write a short review about it some time in my life.

CIAO!

w.o.r.k - the four letter word

2008-08-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

it's my third working day so far and my feet are absolutely dying.

needa get me some funky flats soon..

I MISS BEING A STUDENT!

sigh. i feel so old nowadays, mel is right. we should go party.

the gals in my office are kinda nice, but they have split personalities or something. lunchtime, they are totally crazy! (very my type) but back in the office, everyone's like so quiet and wierd. must be the stress..

and boy am i feeling the heat. longest staff in the office is leaving on thurs and guess who's gonna take over everything? tada! me.

shit.

have to meet so many people before she leaves, learning their names is enough to kill me. trying to learn as much as i can before she leaves so i can do everything smoothly and not interrupt the flow.

STRESS.

met the bigboss today, as in the founder, the chief, the omega, the mighty one (u know what i'm trying to say la huh) of my company. *shivers* talking to him was so scary, but awe-inspiring. i felt so green. didnt expect to be spoken to, so i didnt prepare anything before the meeting.

OMG. big mistake.

i had no idea what to say when he asked me about the company's branding and i juz came up with some crap on the spot. oh well. he seems really nice which is good cos i have to work closely with him and the others, prepare his slides, organise seminars etc.

i'm really freaked out.

i actually have loadsa pics, but i'm juz too goddamn tired/lazy to upload to my laptop. yawns.

alrightey, updates soon.

2008-07-28T11:40:00.002+08:00

medical check up to come.

it's to see if i'm "fit for employment".

oh god, what if i have cancer????

*yawns*

money money money

to my special someone

2008-07-23T23:14:00.007+08:00

23rd of july.

how can i forget.

what a day for my special someone..

the one who is #2 on my speed dial,

my #2

the one who bitches with me when i talk about the people or things i despise,

dont mess w her man.

the one who is my source of reason when the world or rather i, myself have gone crazy,

and i think this was before the drinks. shit.

the one who looks out for me and would order me toy boys when i'm forty,

lookin out as usual.

the one who introduced me to sin,

i lurrrve fried mars bar!!!

the one who braved church with me (we get blisters and die if we step onto holy ground, in theory anyway),

we just love the presents actually.

the one who makes me pick out "dao gei" if (god forbid!) her food has them,

argh, dao gei!

the one who went to get stupid, bulky and totally useless helium balloons with me for my 21st,

totally no use whatsoever.

the one who can read my mind,

she is psychic!

the one who forgives me when i unknowingly reveals her secret to HX - her nemesis,

neh, this one.

the one who doesnt care if im evil (cos she's worse),

dont we both look just angelic???

the one who missed me (probably the most! haha.) when i left for US for a mth,

taken few days after i got back.

the one who joined netball with me because i forced her to,

taken on my 21st! (no netball pic)

the one who orders 20 shots of irish cream even though she cant drink,

irish cream and apple vodka shots.

the one who sometimes share the same taste in clothings as me,

see, i'm not kidding!

the one who knows all my secrets (pls dont blackmail me!),

shhhh!

the one who is..

..so different..

.. yet similar to me.

happy birthday smelly melly.

i love you, allergic to alcohol and all!

2008-07-12T15:14:00.002+08:00

what am i doing?

where do i go next?

these few weeks have been one helleva roller coaster emotionally. i'm like friggin PMS-ing everyday of the month la. am i goin crazy??? shits.

was reading one of my friend's blog, let's just call her Ms B. met up w her and smelly melly and another guy from high sch the other day. by right, we should have been close, well closer anyways, considering the fact that i've known her for like what 10 years, but things happen, teens will always be teens. i guess it's one regret i'll always have.

anways, she looks much thinner than before, and trust me she was thin already. but still her energy level was sky high, smiled alot, talked crap with us, as if everything was normal. i feel so ashamed just thinking about it, how hard her life must have been, how strong she has to be. and i was never there for her, never overcame my fear of how she might react to me, never summoned enough courage to admit that i still care for her.

she is the epitome of inner strength. after all that she's been through: 2 jobs, staying on her own, family to look after, one bad relationship after another, she's still trodding on with life. and she doesnt grumble or say anything about it.

what are we? talking about jadedness and love lost. i'm such a spoilt child. a selfish, proud, cowardly spoilt child. i really hope that things will get better for her, for the people around her, and that love will finally find its way to her soon.

though i never said it, i admire and respect you alot, even if we're not close friends, i still hope to be there for you one day..

existence.

2008-07-09T17:02:00.007+08:00

he is..

waking up early on christmas morning, making your way through the darkness alone, feet on the cold floor, heart thumping with anticipation..

peeking at the many presents under the big glowing christmas tree, trying to find the parcels with your name on it, a mug of hot chocolate beside you..

wide eyes on the plate of half-eaten cookies, carrots and mince pies, the empty glass which was once filled, but now contains only traces of warm milk..

heart swelling, thinking santa had come.

the feeling?

amazing and magical..

..but wait, santa doesn't exist.

when there's nothing left to burn,
you have to set yourself on fire.

Breakable by Ingrid Michaelson

2008-07-07T00:38:00.001+08:00

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?

Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.

So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,

And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

And we are so fragile,And our cracking bones make noise,

And we are just,

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

You fasten my seatbelt because it is the law.

In your two ton death trap I finally saw.

A piece of love in your face that bathed me in regret.

Then you drove me to places I'll never forget.

And we are so fragile,

And our cracking bones make noise,

And we are just,

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

And we are so fragile,

And our cracking bones make noise,

And we are just,

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls-

Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

check this out!

2008-07-04T15:02:00.004+08:00

was checking out tattoo sites and blogs (there may be a tattoo convention next january in Singapore!!!!!) when i stumbled upon these:

damn fucking funny right???

i couldn't stop laughing my head off.

you can even sign a petition to stop war by masturbating!

how meaningful.

go to masturbateforpeace.com to get some funky peace quotes like:

"War can wait, masturbate!"

"War is silly, whack your willy!"

"Don't fight for gasoline, use your Vaseline!"

har dee har.

hilarious shit.

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY Y'ALL!

gals.

2008-07-02T15:20:00.004+08:00

hottie, angelic, bimbotic and bitchy.

i wish u all only the best in life..

may we be so happy and successful until we feel bad about it!

*hugs*

a broken heart doesn't stop beating..
that's why it hurts.

motivate.

2008-06-25T14:36:00.017+08:00

lazy, bored and restless.. yawns.

my darlings are all so busy now! work, sch, internships blah blah blah. yet, i am relatively happy because for once, there's not much shit happening. somehow i get the feeling i'm an old woman trapped in a young person's body.

was talking to e bf the other day about partying. i see pictures of people drinking and dancing the night away, and i dont crave for that anymore. maybe not so much for dancing, drinking.. oh well, i'm getting there. i remember the last time we went to par-teh, it was kinda boring. we'd much rather sit down and talk.

dammit. i cant be getting old! i'm just reaching my prime!

yet, i cant get the thought of life being more than just merry-making out of my head. it seems so shallow and transcient.

anyways, we've been thinking of saving up for a really nice trip. it'll be kinda like a graduation trip, but it's not gonna happen until he actually graduates, which would be 2 years later. sighs. hopefully we'll save enough for all the things we wanna do and places we wanna see.

europe, here we come baby.

so the plan is 2 weeks in europe, which i think is too damn bloody short. have an aunt staying in england, so we'll probably pop by for a while as well (free lodging!!! yay!), then make our way to the other places. details will have to be straightened out later, anyway it's like still super duper long way to go.

when i say there are many places we wanna visit, i am not kidding. but here's our shortlisted places after much discussion and compromise (grumbles):

1. England

surrey: where e aunt lives

- london

pretty london.

i love harrods.

- stratford

might not seem like much, but it's shakepeare's birthplace - a definite must go.

- old trafford

manchester united rocks my socks!

- stanley park

apparently liverpool rocks his. traitor.

2. France

- paris

eiffel tower. beautiful. i have to go up this time!

moulin rouge! c'mon, dont u wanna go??

3. Netherlands

- amsterdam

weed! nah i'm just kidding.

4. Italy

- Milan

fashion capital of the world?? i'm there.

gucci cafe.. hell yeah.

hmm. we still have to figure out the route, plan the itinerary, and get the budget. following which, we have to SAVE SAVE SAVE like crazy for the best trip of our lives. ahahahahahah. i can hardly breathe. i need to get a job asap, you need to make sure u graduate on time.

easy peasy.

hence, my nick. quit asking already.

2008-06-24T00:22:00.006+08:00

job hunting is the bane of my existence.

i know i used to say that exams and assignments were the bane of my existence, but i dont have to deal with them ever again!

woo hoo. (unless of cos, i take my masters, but that is HIGHLY unlikely.)

anyways, back to job hunting.

even though i am super motivated to get a job that brings me closer to my goal, which i now realise takes abt 10 years of relevant work experience to achieve (mutha fukha!), i just dread the whole process of getting it: the searching, the self doubt, the waiting, the interview, the "needa shit" feeling on the first day of work, the crappy newb office attire that makes me look like fuck, etc etc.

dammit. i suck. i am such a wuss. ugh.

i shall focus on the perks of being gainfully employed in order to calm my nerves:

1. buy super alot of chio clothes, shoes and bags without feeling guilty cos i need them for work! (it's called investment morons.)
2. feel like im contributing to society (running for Ms Universe here... world peace!)
3. able to have engaging conversations with intellectual beings instead of crazy kids who cant understand me.
4. able to talk louder at home and throw my weight around... oh wait, i already do that.
5. get my driver's licence, and hopefully a car!
6. travel travel travel!
7. get myself a nice place to stay... alone!
8. seek my ever elusive happiness! (hmmm. i dont really see how being employed would help, but yeah.)
9. buy nice things for all the people i love. (y'all better be nice to me from now on, if u know wat's good for u!)
10. help africa. i think africans are cursed for just being born there. dont know how they survive.

ooh. and i wanna retire early and be a rockstar! ok, i'm officially off my rockers.

anyways, havent sent out any resumes cos he wants to go through the jobs im applying for.

how very bossy! hmm.

alrightey, meeting some of my fav people tml, let's just hope and pray fervently that i wont be force-fed chicken wings again.

amen.

3mm

2008-06-20T20:40:00.007+08:00

we've made it.

until our next mm... i'll be stupid for u.

you're e first thing i think of when i wake..

..and the last thing on my mind when i sleep.

sweet kisses on my shoulder..

feather light touches down my back..

i think i'm falling in love.

Lofty dreams

2008-06-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

paradise in 2 years..

i am cleansed.

all's well that ends well.. for now.

2008-06-13T01:07:00.010+08:00

feeling much better now, but still sheepish.

met him for a chat just now. was thinking bout whether or not to tell him. but, as expected, i did.

note to self: i must control my honesty or rather, verbal diarrhea.

it was good to lay things out on the table and clear my mind.

i wanted to stop blogging bout e bf after today. i have my reasons. (it involves my blog and trauma for potential future gfs. go figure.) anyways, after much discussion, the verdict is out and nope, i wont stop blogging bout him. no regrets. confirm.

my answer to your question :

i wanted to know how i felt when i saw u again, after everything.. and i must say it felt pretty good.

now i can concentrate on my assignment and oncoming exam.

damn, im so far behind schedule.

on another note, i'm happy to know that even though we are currently few thousand miles apart, it feels like we've never parted.

talking to you still cheers me up, and it's still explicitly entertaining and fun.

i miss u daryl lee, get ur ass back here at once! (if not, get me over to party too!)

sighs.

flinch at my stupidity.

2008-06-12T18:09:00.003+08:00

no more gushing.

no flowers, no bears and definitely no sashimi pls.

ah fuck it.

i'm going for a run.

heart don't fail me now.

2008-06-12T15:13:00.002+08:00

i was bored, so i took a break.

i googled and found something.

should i or shouldn't i?

i really wanna know more.

jo says that curiosity killed the cat.

i'm talking lightly, but truth be told, i'm terrified.

now i've seen some, i need to see more.

this is scaring me.

should i or shouldn't i?

my heart's pounding.

i need your support.

dont leave me now jo.

i will, and i'm gonna.

right cheek or left??

2008-06-11T23:17:00.005+08:00

my brain juices have been squeezed and there is virtually nothing left in my head to be used as fuel to continue with my assignment.

yawns.

i'm so freaking tired. i did 16 pgs in like half a day. i think it's not bad, huh? ok, 4 more parts and i'll let myself sleep. after which i'll battle on tomorrow.

sobs.

ah... nothing cheers me up like e bf and blue slurpee-fied tongues. as calvin (as in from calvin and hobbes, not calvin klein) once said, "it's not summer if your tongue is not blue!" (or was it green???)

shrugs.

continue marching on soldier, tis the last march!

disintegration.

2008-06-09T23:46:00.004+08:00

the frustration is eating me alive.

can u not understand me?

do u not have an inkling of what i'm going through?

of cos not, u dont listen.. and it's killing me.

i feel like screaming out to u but u wont care, u wont empathise.

will u?

this is so shallow, so superficial.

i wanna run away yet again.

musings.

2008-06-09T00:23:00.000+08:00

the inevitable always happens..

always.

2008-06-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

HA. HA. HA.

this is why i dont believe in horoscopes.. (no offence omq!) anyone who knows me should know that my memory is like a goldfish! 9 secs or sth. heh. anyways, i have one of the worst memories ever, i even forget what i wanna say in mid sentence. unless of cos u pissed me off.. that i will remember for life. (for eg, FAT BIATCH.)

i'm really bored. being stuck at home with 3 monsters is no joke. i feel my sanity slippin away.

hmm. i really should get started on my ad campaign assignment. sighs. it can wait til tomorrow i guess. bleagh.

oh i have to say that I LOVE DIRTY SEXY MONEY! omg. it's like so my type of show la! even seng said that. hahah. damn. i dont wanna turn into a bimbo but i love the glamour and scandals in that show man. i want the DVD!!!! i'm hoping i'd get it for my bday which is coming like really soon!!!!! usually i'd start singing "jingle bells" and santa claus songs in june and annoy everyone by saying that christmas is coming, but this year, im sooooo looking forward to my bday (dunno why, dont ask!) so i'm gonna tell everyone my bday's coming soon instead! wahahahah.

in case you dont know, it's 04 oct!!!

list of potential bday presents (hint hint!) :

- digi cam (sony, preferably red.)

- Grey's anatomy/Sex and e City/e OC/ Dirty Sexy Money DVDs (for all seasons!)

- vouchers, any kind that i will use! (eg. borders, isetan, taka, tangs, topshop etc etc. pls give generously. dont be a cheapo friend.)

- gucci tote bag ( e one i've been lusting after forever! it's normal gucci print beige leather with cream trimmings. priced at S$1390. feel free to ask if unsure!)

- U2 edition ipod (e black and red one. i know it's old. i like ok!)

- sponsor my new tattoo/piercings.

hmmm. i cant think of anything else that i really really want and is not totally unreasonable to ask for as a bday gift. like a car for example. nope, all my potential gifts are very very reasonable. right??? oh well, i will update the list as time goes by and things pop up in my mind.

only 4 months to save up people!

woots.

ps. sorry for being such a bitch last night. it was e PMS demon. i swear.

2008-06-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

i. am. starving.

like really starving...

somebody help me. i've only had breakfast and now i have to wait an hour for the pizza to arrive. it's 7 pm. in order not to die of hunger, i've decided to blog to occupy myself and take my mind off the hunger pangs in my empty tummy.

*tummy growls*

and i have to say the bf is like damn cute la. who doesnt know pizza hut's delivery number??? like c'mon, it's EVERYWHERE. u know e little jingle??? "6-235-35-35 pizza hut delivery!" hahaha. cuckoo bird. he said "it's still the same number meh??" err. yaaaaaaaa. and he asks me if i want some porridge first.. err. nooooooooooooo. cos i want pizza or at least something unhealthy!!!! (ooh! i've just got biscuits served to me. he's such a darling.)

*whines*

only 3 minutes has passed, i still have like 57 more minutes to go. damn.

anyways, i know i said i'd post pics but i'm lazy OKAY? plus hungry and really grouchy so DONT BUG ME. pics next time.

was reading blogs and i realised i havent met alot of my friends recently. isnt technology supposed to bring us closer together, u know, break down barriers and shit. but i think it's actually doing the opposite. we talk online, read blogs to keep ourselves updated, and we dont meet up!!! wassup w that??? (okay, i think bf is hungry too cos he's acting weird. he just shouted "beat it!" along with the radio. gave me a shock. idiot.)

omq's bday is comin up and guess where she wants to go..... DRINKING. goodness. her liver's probably like black and shrivelled. ugh. hahah. and cos i alr swore (ok, promised, swear seems like such a strong word..) that i'm quitting alcohol (except beers and wines.. those arent really alcohol alcohol, u know what i mean???) so i told her that maybe we can meet for dinner before that and i wont go for the drinking session. think she's in shock cos i'm still waiting for her reply. hahah. that woman. she actually told me that alcohol is good for me. rightttttttt. tnx ah.

alright! 7.13pm... 48 mins to go! i'm hoping that wrapping myself up in the blanket will muffle the rumbling sounds in my stomache. god. i sound like thunder! hmmm. i conclude that bf is creepy. he's lying on the bed, playing with my hp (not V9!!!!!!!!!!! wails.) with his back facing me. i'm sitting at the computer table abt half a metre away. it is almost total darkness. i pop one of the biscuits in my mouth, quite discreetly i thought and i hear bf say "nice not?" with his back still facing me.

*jumps up and looks around*

this boy is freaky. hahahah.

phwoarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i'm really damn hungry la!!!! time check 7.22pm. not too bad. (bf just popped up behind, giving me yet another shock. tmd.)

*chants* hungry hungry hungry. food food food.

ok, i'm gonna torture my bf by whinning non stop.

oh wait. the food is here!!! 7.27pm. not too bad, efficient.. i like.

gonna pig out now.

ciao.

whoopeeeeeeeee!

latest update - 8.03pm : (bf says that i muz add this) i. am. so. full. i can hardly walk now.

har dee har.

2008-06-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

memories are just that.. memories.

not tangible, not present, not potential future.

i deleted all my old mails cos they are no longer relevant to me.

finally got round to it. yay me.

-pats myself on e back-

focusing on the here and now is more important than anything else.

i wont take it for granted, i wont take you for granted.

i wont... promise.

anyways, the last week was well spent, no alcohol.

i'm serious, not kidding!

wahahaha.

ok let's see..

snow city, no alcohol..

cycling, no alcohol.

ice skating, nope, no alcohol.

even ktv, no alcohol!

i'm on a roll man.

sighs, it's june already. so fast.

soon the bf's gonna start working again, and i have to do my asignment and start studying for my final paper... which means that hopefully i'll graduate and get a job like really soon!

went shopping with my mom and sister the other day and i totally went crazy over shoes!!! i was like planning which shoes to go with which outfit for work. i was happily dreaming up killer office wear until my mom reminded me i havent got a job yet so i wont know what kinda of clothes and shoes and bags and accessories are acceptable.

right.

bring me crashing back down to earth, why dont you mom.

cant wait for my girly outing to mel's house, we're gonna pig out, watch movies and paint our nails. so happy.... but i hate potluck!

what's wrong with ordering take away???? did i mention i cant cook???

be prepared for the consequences my darlings.

alrightey, would love to put up pics of my totally squeaky clean week, but the bf has them so til next post then.

speaking of him.. i hope your cold goes away soon so we can go blading!!!!!!!

muaaaaaaack.

ps. beds are more delicate than we think. be gentle with them! *wink*

unglamness.

2008-05-25T11:59:00.000+08:00

i had e worst hangover ever.

once again i swear to quit alcohol, with the bf laughing in my face.

ouch.

totally zonked out cos of those tequila shots. bleagh.

*pukes*

and my poor bf had to drag me all the way home, injuring me seriously at the same time.

i woke up with bruises on my legs, arms and hips.

oh, and a bleeding ankle as well as a bump on the head, apparantly i hit my head on e cab.

really, i swear this is the last time such a thing happens.

no. more. drinking.

and what's worst is i lost my beloved V9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i'm so sorry baby. sobs.

have to save up to get another V9. dammit.

oh well. hope blisters pop up all over the mutha fukha's itchy hands.

anyways, was checking my exploding mailbox and i got a notification from friendster that the bitch had her bday 3 days back...

.. happy bday big piece of lard, you're one year closer to eternal spinsterhood!

next week will be super packed, i'll probably be abandoning this blog for a while.

super healthy fun, is all i want.

really.

it's may 22!

2008-05-22T10:55:00.000+08:00

woo hoooooooooooo, it's may 22!!!!

e bf's exams are gonna be over in approximately an hour! yays!

whole list of places to go and things to do... finally we can go have some fun. weee.

seng and bf came to have botak jones that day after their paper, madness.

all the way from expo to amk..the lure of food is great i guess.

there was like ALOT of food, and we went for dessert after.

omfg. check out the food!

that is just so sexy.

at the dessert place

sigh. -pats bulging tummy-

had supper with part of da gang @ coffee bean. sinful sinful!

i was forced to have chicken caesar salad though, cos they ran out of freaking pasta! so not my day. tmd.

i miss e goons, no pun intended mel. hah!

e goons.

my high flying melliepop!

some people just wont quit acting cute.

why cant u be more like tomo??? see.. so calm and normal..

oh well, somethings never change. miss my darlings!

and look at my other darlings.. they're all grown up!!!

sobs. i feel old.

those are my fake versaces, but my retard of a sister looks damn good in them!

little monster #1

little monster #2

i really love them, when they're not screaming at/beating/biting me.

cant wait to see more darlings later!!!

wild night, here we come!

2008-05-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

i think i'm feeling tired and grouchy.

the weather is a super conducive environment for PMS, in a way that it actually encourages PMS. apparantly we start PMS-ing 2 wks before D-day and for that 1 wk we are uncomfortable. so technically, women are peaceloving creatures for like a third of their lives. hmm.

we have alot on our minds, i know i do. and i forget things, i guess i just dont expect you to... not things that you tell me anyway.

i once said that there are no good or bad lovers, just good or bad actors.

for both our sakes, please be a good one.

actually, i'm surprised that this is all i'm feeling, just disgruntled, not depressed or super pissed. i hope this is a sign of growing up, but as HH said, we're not growing up, just getting jaded.

i wonder if this is good.. me not feeling more. just finished a book and i found a theory very similar to my own. apparantly you segment your heart into different pieces so when one segment lets you down, you have other segments to keep you going.

i guess i'm just a little disappointed.

i'm looking forward to the big meeting..
life is just so damn exciting isnt it?

i hate sorrys and sweet nothings and pathetic people.

woots.

2008-05-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

just realised that i havent blogged in ages!

too lazy.. and there was school................ BORING.

anyways, i'm over and done with school, only 1 last exam to go, provided i dont fail anything!

*crosses fingers*

PLEASE LEMME PASS AND GRADUATE SOON!!!!!

trying to revamp my blog, so much to write and so many pics to upload!

but not today, waiting for lazy ass to wake up and it's off to e airport for some serious mugging.

not me of cos, im going with my chick lit.

wahahah!

i'm soooo looking forward to may 22!!!!

*chants* may 22 may 22 may 22!

seeing them again was fun, but i dont miss work at all!

la la la.

ZW - work more OT and let's go get more coloured contacts together!

oh did i mention that i got purple lenses and they are actually darker than my natural eye colour.

dammit.

okays, til next time, enjoy mugging/working/slacking peeps, gonna try to wake e bf up.

sighs.

i want..

2008-05-03T14:50:00.000+08:00

chocs and..

..a piggyback ride.

it's friday.

2008-05-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

sigh.

i've been trying to facebook since i'm like so free and everything now but i just dont have the

patience to go through everything.

im so not a facebook person.

look, isnt meeting up much easier??

poke ur friend for real.

hah.

speaking of which, im finally gonna meet HH after sooooooo bloody long.

i wonder what NS has done to him man.

looking forward to my botak jones date!

but pls, no alcohol.

im quitting, beer monster.

i'm so bored now, desperately need something to do, especially since most of my friends are schooling/working/having exams...

so.... i'm.... gonna...

..totally revamp my drabby room!

woot.

so exciting.

went to choose my new carpet just now..

phew!

thank god mom decided to lemme keep my room carpetted, if not, i will DIE.

the catch is that i have to vacuum it few times a week (riteee, ahem!) and not bring shoes in (how am i gonna match my outfits???) and shampoo it once in a while (make that once in a blue moon man!)

anyways, the deed is done and my new fluffy gray carpet will arrive on tuesday.

bye, dirty pale green carpet.

YAY, I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY.

next on the things-to-get list:

- paint (have decided on black/red walls and smoky gray bed; totally forgot about the wardrobes. shit.)

- new bed covers (i have to get something to match the new room, rite?)

- helpers!!! (do i hear volunteers?? anyone anyone??)

boo.

so full of enthusiasm, i went to search online to see what i can get for my room!

yes yes, i know i cant put a tub in my room, but it's so pretty dont you think?

love the egg chair, i want the one with in built speakers please!

my kitchen... i wish.

yes, yes, yes!

ooh la la...

they're shelves. cute.

space man chair, i like.

balls of light. hahahah.

ok, so i dont have a phone line in my room.

want. retro. tv.

this is so nice, but super fucking ex.

last but not least, look what i found!

elvis pez dispensers, limited edition.

elvis isnt dead, elvis isnt dead, elvis isnt dead cos i heard him on e radioooooo...!

alright, i admit, it wasnt a very fruitful search.

but i am inspired, that's what matters.

goin shopping.

toodles.

deathniversary.

2008-05-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone,

FINALLY it's my turn to write this kinda emo mail!!!

Have fun answering more calls, jia you to hit call stats.

omg, i dont have to worry abt that anymore! =D

dom - sorry, no one to send u home anymore. try being nice, maybe someone else will offer.

barret - hang in there, ur day's coming soon. dont emo alr k.

crystal - FREEDOM!

OMQ and HIHI - party queens, i will make it to one of ur wild nights someday!

zhiwei - my poor team ic, pls take care of my 3 cases. i will c u may 10. (probably)

peining - i wanna hear u sing one day!

adam - tnx for the waivers!! ahahahaha.

vincent aka jordan - i will miss feeling small beside you, and i bet u'll miss taking water for me.

jackiey - enjoy ur lost/go cart/f1 racing!

jensen - eh yo, no one to call u "big dick" alr. call u one more time la... BIG DICK!

okok, to my beloved PT TLs:

Chiam - tnx for being my ass - saver time and again. ktv one day ya?

Chester - tnx for the OT!!!

Michael - tnx for making us suffer from swollen lips @ geylang frog porridge.

Sherman - Tnx for the OT and everything else la huh. ahahahah.

Jolene - altho nv interact much, i get e feeling u r actually very nice. hahah. tnx for e bubble tea!

Last but not least, lao jiao TL Jen Hong:

who will forget you or miss you out?

wanna thank you for your guidance and insight to the real world.

If i can be only 10% of what you are, i'll be very happy.

May you have many MANY more years to come in Starhub!

alrightey, if i left anyone out, it's cos of my bad memory and nothing personal ya?

oh, btw, hope you guys enjoyed e donuts last night!

CIAO PEEPS!

love,
dine aka sammi
(sole survivor of batch S80)

________________________________________________

this is for you ah seng. haha.

note what is written to jen hong "xiao" hui.

do not take it at face value, it is sarcasm.

cant believe it, im finally free!

no more "good evening starhub".

had a full day celebration man, went shopping, eat spicy stuff, put more holes in my ear. hahah.

and we ended off with drinks!

what better way to signify the end of torture.

met "fiona" too after that.

he's so funny.

i feel... cheerful.

wow.

despite everything, it remains like this.

cravings.

2008-04-20T23:34:00.001+08:00

this..

this..

this..

and this..

what do we know after all..

my loves.

2008-04-19T11:45:00.000+08:00

people are getting on one another's nerves.

with risks of breaking down, i opt to break free.

i pray that enough courage and strength are within us to cross this hurdle.

friends, i'm with you.

it was a near perfect off day last thursday, full of laughter, warmth and genuine friendship.

i miss that.

cant stand the fakeness, cant stand that at times i find myself becoming one of them.

anyways, my near perfect day off!

met 3 different bunch of peeps. first part of the day was spent whining with jo, cos we went to send janna and the gang off to the freaking US for 5 long weeks!!!!! *whines* we wanna go toooooooo!!! TAKE ME ALONG. they'll be goin LA, San Fran, New York(!!!), Oklahoma and if i'm not wrong VIVA Las Vegas! *mutters* bitches.

making plans to go back to US next year with some other classmates. we really miss staying together and playing all sorts of pranks on each other. oh, i have been planning to blog about my US trip for like forever, but there's just too many pics to sieve through, will try to do it asap. promise. love catching up with jo man, so much gossiping to be done. and updates, omg! i hope that stupid boy of hers does something soon!

next, was meeting up with my darlings mel and fran. they went to Japan at almost the same time la! left me all alone here in boring singapore. tmd. but i forgive u, cos of all the yummy stuff u got me. ahahaha! god, i'm so shallow.

fran made me a bento:

and i must say, tokyo banana rocks my socks!

mel got me white choc bix and damn chio sunnies that could put barret's bumble bee shades to shame:

i just look weird man.

love you darlings!!!! but can you like please plan trips on different days from now on????????? ugh.

met the boy after that. wooo. caught this:

damn fucking funny can. goodness. it made me laugh til i cried. i think all should catch this. the first one was damn good too, funnier in fact, but i think this one has a better storyline. great choice boyfriend! loads more movies to catch man.

i really really REALLY wanna watch:

-awake

-the other boleyn girl

-definitely maybe

- harold and kumar escape from guantanamo bay

wanted to catch crows zero desperately! but they only had that for like a little while. wtf. and the stupid woman at the counter said cos no one wanted to watch it, it was just fighting all the way. i mean, hello??? did u not watch the trailer?? the show IS ABOUT FIGHTING U CUCKOO. sigh. no more hot jap ah bengs to look at. damn.

one movie i'll definitely NOT watch - Hottie Nottie. wtf. stupid bimbo.

anyways, after movie and dinner we were deciding whether or not to head down to Wala's to listen to the live band and have some drinks. I LOVE WALA'S ON THURSDAY. the band is really good! anyways, we felt a bit cuckoo going there just the two of us so we went to boat quay instead. and i have to repeat this, the boy cant drink! hahahah. *coughs*loser. HEE. i like... he isnt really the ktv pub kinda guy and not long he was yawning, trying to finish his mug of beer. to cut the long story short, we went to MOS on a THURSDAY night, just the TWO of us, cos he wanted to dance. so impromptu. loves. we had this mini competition, see who's able to get a hp number first. la la la. i won! sucker was a guy with a gf of 9yrs. jerk.

i love it when u get jealous.

i'm a little saddistic. shit.

love the way you excite me and leave me wanting for more.

ahem.

2008-04-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

i have something to announce.

im sure most of you have guessed by now, but in order to minimise office gossip we've decided to hold back the news til now...

Yes everyone, i am dating Leon Lau Kang Hui.

okok, close those mouths, dont need to be too shocked.

and yes, references to the boy=leon.

pls refrain from banging your heads against the wall, i know i can do better but..

anyways, i got conned into this by surprise breakfasts, so if you're wondering why... hahaha.

leon, if you're reading this, it's a JOKE.

he's actually very sweet (i know it doesnt show);

and super patient;

and damn good to me (most of the time);

and super funny (not to mention cuckoo);

and he cooks (experimentally, and im e guinea pig);

and most of all, he's such a cutie! see below:

*faints*

ahahaha. yep, that's about it. i have low standards, what can i say.

Mr Lau, announcement done, be prepared for questions ahead.

ooh, cant wait for tml....

see ya boyfriend!

EURGH.

2008-04-14T02:27:00.000+08:00

if i cant watch my rock concert show, i'm gonna blame YOU.

if i cant get my new handphone, YOU are the reason.

if i cant get my belly pierced, YOU are soooooooooooo gonna be hated.

ugh.

i'm gonna comfort myself with some facts though:

a) at least im not as FAT as YOU, thick elephant legged thing.

b) i'm gonna leave the shit hole whereas YOU will probably be there for the rest of your sad and pathetic life.

c) i can get screwed if i want.

BITCH.

abt the boy.

2008-04-13T13:51:00.000+08:00

dine is so damn touched, even though she was freaked out by a pair of familiar dunks..

couldnt believe my eyes last night.

AND i cant believe that you wanted to scare the wits out of me IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

after work, i jumped into a cab as per normal to go back home and crash (exams drain the shit out of my brain, especially so when i dont study..)
got a damn nice cab driver who offered to watch me go up the lift before driving away. but cos i'm the "geh kiang" type, i said NOOOOOOO, it's safe and im fine.

dammit.

i should have said yes and watch you get beaten up by some unknown taxi driver!

muahahahahahah.

i'm evil i know.

sometimes i wonder why u're so good to me.

i vote sleep.

2008-04-12T03:03:00.000+08:00

after much deliberation and consideration, i have decided to fuck it and sleep.

ZW, i will show you how much determination i have.

continue to pray for me though.

i hate exams.

life.

2008-04-09T12:04:00.000+08:00

i have embarrassed myself into the next century.

god dammit.

saturday was wild man. like seriously. drank too much, too fast. said too much, touched my forbidden fruit. i always knew the boy couldnt drink well, why didnt i limit myself. ugh.

anyways, feelings of shitiness melted away, then came back and hit me at full impact.

took a poll: "would you rather be sad, or be a bitch and be happy?"

most people said they'd rather be a bitch and be happy.

ruthless biatches......... I LIKE.

still clueless on what to do. give me a sign man, I AM HUMAN AFTER ALL!

grabbed from the always chripy and fresh looking (i have no idea how she does it!) summer's blog:

love the last pic, my hair looks nice for once! (and i look like i have boobs!)
u gotta love the photographer.

life back at the nest totally sux now.

i'm like non-existent.

damn. i crave human interaction, gonna start applying for OT at work just to stay away.

but it was worth it...

no matter how long we have, i'll just try to make the most of it.

2008-04-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

i want to be a bitch.

i want it to be me me me.

i dont want to give a shit about anyone else's feelings.

..but i cant.

cookies????

2008-03-30T12:10:00.000+08:00

ok, so the plan was to make some damn freakin yummy cookies so we can gorge ourselves silly once again. BUT, we're just too damn lazy to drag our asses to the nearest supermarket to get that cookie mix! ugh.

right now we're just doin nothing, bunch of couch potatoes.

hmm. our diet starts tomorrow btw. so no more hugeass suppers to pass off as dinners, no more snacks while walking about and definitely no more sheperd's pie and mudpie just because.. sobs. salads and more salads, here we come. =(

we went to the big M with seng the other day. and wat did we have...? 24 bloody freaking big sweet and spicy chicken wings! OMFG. that crazy seng. even the waiter thought he was nuts, i swear. check this out..

seng is a big fat greedy pig! wahahahah.

i'm swearing off chicken and pizza hut for the next few months.

i love spending time with you, even if we're not alone.

lovely.

2008-03-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

hearts my home-made ice mocha.

whirlwind.

2008-03-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

i think i'm seriously pms-ing..

and no one really knows me.

alright maybe except ZW.

yes, you were right. i did feel like doing what you thought i looked like i was about to do yesterday.

shits.

i'm being horrible today. i feel horrible being horrible.

i wanna overdose on chocolates.

let's go sky diving, bungee jumping, wakeboarding and party like there's no tomorrow.

i wish..

back by popular demand.

2008-03-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

Here i am, everybody cheer..

hooray!

feelin kinda lazy and not to mention preoccupied lately. so i delayed starting up a new blog til now. toki was complaining that "someone" stopped blogging so he's bored and has nothing to read. Righttttttttttttt....

anyways, i juz came back from getting a tattoo not too long ago. ouch man. i have a star on my right hip (front) now. please dont ask me if it's a northern star or whatever star, it's juz a plain star. no particular or deep meaning, i got it strictly for aesthetic purposes and to turn a certain someone on. wahahahah. joke on the latter part of that statement. *winks*

may get another one on my back cos i have to go back to my very cool tattoo artist - VIK, to get my tattoo touched up in about a mth's time. wooooo. i'm addicted man. think my belly piercing would have to wait! i need inspiration for my next one..... hopefully we'll do it together this time.

thanks for the fried mars bar with vanilla ice cream. it really helped with the pain. *beams*

on a totally different topic, someone wanted to know my name yesterday and he almost killed him. poor guy, of all the people to ask. all the same, it's nice to know that he felt something. wahahah. mom was very amused when i told her.

i love it when we all get along.

feelin contented for now..

what's next?